That time is coming again. It just hit me really hard this morning.

Alex's last day of work is on Monday, which makes me feel as though the time for him to leave is coming soon. I can't believe we have to do this again.

Up until this point I think I have handled this very well (and Alex agrees). But now I feel like a weepy mess again. I am totally overwhelmed with the thoughts of being apart for another year, this time taking care of a baby completely by myself.

I no longer live just a few blocks away from my parents, or a block away from my best friend. It's going to be tough.

Having done this before I know a little more about what to expect, but that doesn't exactly make it any easier. I know God will help us get through this again, but right now it just makes me sad whenever I think about it. I will have to get used to holding back tears again. Sometimes it doesn't work, but I try.

I haven't really noticed anything with Alex, but everytime I see him having fun with Zane it makes me sad about all the time he is going to miss with him.

This post is really a downer, but my blog is titled The life of Laci...and this is my life right now. Just writing this makes the load feel a little lighter.